Daryl Wood's Blog

As I sat down to write, I realized that all the topics I wanted to post seem somewhat irrelevant in the face of the devastating events in Haiti. What else can matter when everywhere we look there are images of horrible suffering and loss? How important are the many things we deem vital to our wellbeing when people are buried beneath mounds of rubble or left homeless without food or medical attention? There was a time when it would have taken days to have seen what now finds its way into our living rooms and at our fingertips. What is so heartbreaking is the personal stories that are broadcast everywhere we turn. So, it is that I express my deepest sorrow and compassion for the people of Haiti and all those who share their burden.

There is, as always, a way that this crisis makes me reflect on what I am doing in my life. What difference am I making. What purpose do I serve. What is next for me. 2009 was a year of transition. I lost many people I cared about including my beloved mother and my wonderful step-father-in-law. I also gained a beautiful daughter-in-law and deepened some friendships that matter a lot to me. In all, I was glad to let go of 2009 if only as a demarcation to have a fresh start. Of course that can happen anytime AND many times. For me, I needed the energy of the shift that takes place when a New Year begins to help me refocus. It’s working.

Rather than making resolutions I claimed an overall intention for 2010. I decided that 2010 is my “clean up” year. There are so many little things that are dangling around in my life and both wanting and needing to be cleaned up. There is that weight issue which was compounded by my reaction to grief. There is the book I said I’d publish and even though it was almost finished a year ago has not manifested. There is the integrity issue around what I pay my coach. There is the ongoing nuisance of my wishy washy commitment to a relationship with someone I feel obligated to. It’s the back and forth questioning of how I promote myself. There’s the resistance to things, the tolerating of things, the worrying about things and the old drama I love to pull out every now and then.

I know why people get fatigue. They just have too much stuff to clean up. Physically, Emotionally, Spiritually.

So, it’s time. It’s time to get on with it. No more excuses. Get it done.

I want this year to be more than just clean up. I want it to be a step up. Clean up what I need to and step up to what I’m called to. If that’s all I do it will be more than enough to satisfy my desire for fulfillment.